"In Spite of Myself"

 Janine, my dear child, I love you and I await your attendance to this Tabernacle for we flow as one in the depths of the River of the I Am. Come and know that your yesterday has expanded your soul.  Come and be with me in the peace that flows through all here within the River of the I Am.

Your years of attendance to your soul has grown and expanded you that you may taste these depths all the more and more. How peaceful is our communion. How warm is your heart that takes in mine.

Your yesterday saw you walk in the inch and moment that changed you for you were able to move towards and not away from the call of Jesus to be naked of heart and soul with no matter the noise for the noise was loud. You pray with the words "in spite of myself." 

"In spite of myself"  shows that you are awake and aware of your misguided learning and shaping that rises up within you without your permission. Janine, my child, it is as you speak of.  The old rises up within you without your permission for it has been embedded in your childhood. To see the misguidedness clearly that it is as the wind that rises up is to now know it can be given over to God.  "In spite of myself" is to know the reason that Jesus came, lived and died for you.

Jesus has come that you may give Him these learnings that are now much noise for the noise wishes you to remain unawake. The noise and misguidedness that resides in unawareness is the noise that craves to control.  Unawareness of your shaping and learning controls in darkness while awareness of your learning and shaping moves you into the ways of the River of the I Am where you have the ability to see and give over to Jesus what is misguided. Awareness opens the doors to the depths of your soul.  Let those with ears to hear, hear.