Nothingness and Meaninglessness
Janine, my child, you come to me here at this Tabernacle with the awareness that solitude of heart is before you and with you and within you. You have awareness that when there is nothing left within you, all becomes available.
You are both lost and found. You are both old and new. You are both broken and whole. The world may see these gifts as not possible for the world cannot see from the emptiness that solitude demands. Food no longer feeds you and yet you are fed.
In the mystical ways of the River of the I Am this is not only possible but needed to move into these new depths within you. There is no earth below you or sky above you and yet you are grounded to something other than the earth.
Solitude within this depth holds you in a nothingness. This solitude holds you in a meaninglessness as well for you need to pass through this depth with nothing in order to know the Jesus who died for you. You cannot know this while holding onto the earth.
You are not being abandoned. You are being taken to new depths. The River of the I Am is moving you into its depths where the truth abides. To know Jesus at this depth is to walk His walk and taste His walk. To know Jesus at this depth is to know the need to leave all behind. This causes the isolation and meaninglessness that is upon you. I know your heart and you do not waver in your love for Jesus.