The Dark Night

 I am here, Janine, and I call you by name for I am your mother and I hold you in communion with Jesus, our Savior. Breathe deeply and know my love for you. 

You ask, "What shall I say?" "How shall I be for I am empty with no way to speak or be." "My voice cannot speak and my arms cannot hold."  "My body aches to know what to say and how to be." "I am lost." 

Janine, my child, you are walking in the dark night. You do not walk alone even when the dark night makes you feel alone. You need not speak for words do no justice to the dark night. Your voice cannot speak and your arms cannot hold within the dark night. 

But, my child, you are being held by Jesus and me. You need not speak but you must hear. Jesus speaks to you. The dark night is forcing you to let go of the last vintages of yourself that you may believe in Jesus in total. To walk in such darkness is to come to trust Jesus in ways that are beyond the daylight. 

It is easy to see a path when it is day. In the dark night you must trust that Jesus holds you and shows you the way.