Pray in Spite of Yourself
Janine, my child, You are of this Tabernacle by the grace of God. This is of your design. This is of your soul that has opened to its design.
You were designed to have both the physical and mystical opened and in a wholeness where each walks in a nakedness and communion with no bindings to separate. Your heart and soul now taste the beauty of this wholeness that loves and only loves with no matter the noise.
You love when love is easy. You love when love is hard. You pray that asks for help in what you call, "in spite of yourself". Your learning and shaping rises up at times and you become aware of these embedded prejudices. Your awareness then asks for help in spite of yourself.
To ask for help in spite of yourself is to know of the leanings of those who came before you. Awareness of these embedded prejudices and to give them to Jesus is the key to the path to the New Earth for all prejudices shall be left behind in the New Earth.
Your ancestors experience joy at your prayer to end your prejudices for yours is theirs and healing yours heals theirs. Let those with ears to hear, hear.