Coming Home
COMING HOME TO THE MOTHER:
THE BOOK
“Coming Home to the Mother”
A Story of Miracles and Teachings of the Blessed Virgin Mary For the People of Today
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My name is Janine Lariviere and I am a Licensed Mental Health Counselor with a private practice in a small town in Massachusetts. I have been on a journey since infancy that has carried with it a need to write this book. I didn’t come to this discovery until much later in life after getting married, having two lovely daughters, becoming a Licensed Mental Health Counselor with a successful private practice and finally having a dangerous surgery in which the Blessed Virgin told me in a dream that She and the Holy Family would be with me. Our Lady also told me in that dream that all would be well and that I was to write a book called “Coming Home to the Mother.”
After the surgery, Our Lady asked me to look up the word, Santeria, as it would be important. I had never heard the word before, nor had I any inkling of the depth to which this cult used ritualistic behaviors and yet, I knew all about the Santeria in an intimate way as I was ritualistically and sexually abused as a child by a Santeria cult ( I was diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder in 1986). As the adult in me was researching the word Santeria, the “children” in me (the alter children) had already told my therapist of the horrific pain of being ritualistically and sexually abused at the hands of hooded men and some women. The children in me were forced to witness the sacrifice of animals as well as bear the rapes of not only themselves, but also the rape of other children and all the while this abuse was happening in front of a statue of the Blessed Virgin (the Santeria cult is known for using the saints of the Catholic Church as a front for their ritualistic abuse). The adult in me had to allow the children to tell me their story and then those memories became mine (integration). This integration was only made possible with the beautiful intervention of Our Lady.
As my conscious awareness of the abuse unfolded, it became quite clear that the hand of the Blessed Virgin Mary was there to protect me from the very beginning of the abuse. On a quiet and peaceful evening in the fall of 2012, Mother took me on a beautiful journey where I rode the wings of her mantle as She showed me the magnificent gift of dissociation and how that gift saved me from psychological and physical death.
Since the surgery, I come to the keyboard when Mother calls me as she uses my hands to tell of her love for all her children as well as use my story to expose that love in a way I could never have imagined or done on my own.
As the book “Coming Home to the Mother” progresses, the Blessed Virgin makes it clear her purpose of using my hands to write is to let the world know of her intense love for all souls and to teach the ways of the Holy Spirit as well as the ways of discerning her voice from worldly chaos and “noise”. Mother has also asked that I take her teachings and go out into the world and teach of her non-judgmental love and open heart and bring souls into the light of her womb, Jesus. To that end, I have begun this website. I have added “A therapist’s perspective” from the book to give you a better understanding of the clinical and supernatural aspects of my journey.
A Therapist’s Perspective
In May of 1986 a 39 year old woman came to me for therapy. She was married, had two daughters and worked in a school cafeteria. She felt her life should be good, but fears and disturbing dreams were welling up in her. As a clinical psychologist and pastoral counselor, I had no idea that this healing journey would unfold with dimensions and avenues so deeply buried, yet eventually able to surface with profound truth and healing.
In the early stages of treatment, Janine began to share deepening anxiety and fear. At times she would curl up in a fetal position and release intense screams. Eventually there was a surfacing of what the fears and pain carried. How the source of pain came to light opened the door to what was a lifesaving “gift” of dissociation. After a period of time Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly Multiple Personality Disorder) was the clinical diagnosis.
The fears started to center on fears of men, discomfort and insecurity in their presence. After a period of time, alters started to surface in the sessions. As each alter tested me for trust and belief, they shared their names and some aspect of what trauma Janine had experienced as a child. Each alter started to use Janine’s adult body to release some of the horrific pain and anguish. During many of these incidents the adult Janine had no recall and would ask me what had “come out.” Each alter, after a period of time and after sharing what part of the dissociation it carried, would in a way “die” and somehow integrate with Janine. Every alter gave a departing message that “growdup” Janine would have to feel the pain. This proved true as, after years of struggle and denial, the adult Janine did feel all the pain and eventually accepted the truth of what happened to her.
In my clinical practice I have never witnessed so much pain and terror be felt and released from one person’s body, psyche and soul. After some years of therapy the adult Janine shared that Mary, the Mother of Jesus, taught her how to dissociate in order to survive the horrors of sexual and ritual abuse. From that day her therapy surfaced a dimension beyond just clinical and a supernatural component was now present.
This spiritual component included Janine using terms like “rapture” and Jesus “sanctioning” Mary to be present to Janine from the very beginning of the abuse. In one session Janine experienced what she termed a “rapture” with Abba, God the Father. In reading Theresa of Avila’s description of her rapture, Janine’s experience was similar.
In the fall of 2012 Janine was to have a dangerous surgery and was filled with fear as it might be cancer. She shared that Mary came to her in a dream and assured Janine that She would be with her during the surgery. The surgery went well. Afterwards Janine shared in a session that Mary wanted to be her teacher. This was followed by Mary asking Janine to start writing and that Mary, Mother, would use Janine’s hands. Since then the volume and content of Mary’s message through Janine defies a simple, rational explanation.
Clinically, one might assess that Mother was just a higher form of an alter, a more advanced level of integration. It’s true that Janine has achieved a remarkable level of integration and continues to progress. Her level of confidence and capacity to function as a therapist herself have resulted in a full time practice.
Yet, if anyone reads the writings of Janine in “Coming Home to the Mother, “one will be challenged to limit an explanation to only a natural phenomena of healing. The challenge will be frustrating until one opens up to the supernatural, transrational, mystical—whatever term might express the transcendent—presence of Mary the Mother of God.
The writings are a humble and heroic exposure of one woman who shares her healing from sexual abuse and especially ritual sexual abuse. They also unfold the spiritual foundation of healing. For Janine it is the presence of Mother, Mary. The teachings of Mary given
through Janine for the world today are a revelation and source of hope for all who have been abused. Above all, the writings reinforce the revelation of God, Abba, as a loving Father concerned and involved in every person’s life journey.
As a clinical psychologist I have witnessed a healing journey that started with a woman who for all intent should have been destroyed psychologically, but is ongoing in ways that defy traditional limits. As a pastoral counselor I have witnessed the power of God’s presence at the foundation of healing. My faith has deepened during this journey. My faith accepts the real presence of Mary, the Mother of God, as She continues to send a message through Janine.
Anyone who reads “Coming Home to the Mother” will find hope for healing, whatever his or her spiritual relationship to one’s Higher Power. If one reads Janine’s writings with no faith, perhaps one will be challenged to discover a belief in a personal loving God who can send Mary into the life of Janine and into anyone’s life.
Donald A Favreau, D.Min. Licensed Psychologist/Provider