The False Gods of Your Childhood
Janine, come and see and taste and take in the scent of the River of the I Am where your senses are expanded. Come and drink in the love of Jesus who is the lifeblood of the River.
Your dream has shown you the ways of your learning for your learning needed to be freed from the noise of the old. Your fret within the dream is the fret of continuing to search for what is no longer there.
You searched for your roots that are now beyond you. They are the roots of the false gods given you. You cannot return to what is of the old. You are no longer able to enter that church for it holds the misguidedness of the false gods of your childhood.
The child within you is no longer a part of the old and can no longer be a part of the false gods. Fret not about your dream for it tells of the truth of the false gods within a false church.
Your want to rejoin that church needed to be thwarted for it presented a danger. Janine, it was Jesus who kept you from receiving the old, very old, communion that you may now receive Him in communion.
Fret not for the new is of Jesus and you woke to be in communion with Him and not the old church. To know Jesus in intimacy is to have given up the old that you may receive the truth of Jesus and not the false gods of your childhood.